Spare me the guilt please, I already feel guilty enough.
I’ve wanted a dog for a long time, specifically a beagle. I grew up with them. I had contemplated the effort and commitment requires, but I never was really prepared for this. I’m in the midst of an unrelated mental health crisis and I just feel completely overwhelmed with the puppy on top of it.
I work full time, and live in an apartment. I leave for work around 745, come home to let him out and feed him around noon, then leave again at 1245 and am home around 515. When I’m gone, he is crated. He’s actually doing fairly well on the potty training all things considered. He only went in the crate his first night and once when I had to leave him alone for a little over 5 hours for work obligations. Even with that, I’m struggling to take care of myself with keeping a constant eye on him when he’s out of the crate. I haven’t been eating, and I feel entirely overwhelmed with the amount of attention I need to give him when I am home.
On top of that, I can’t shake the guilt. Beagles are pack dogs, and I’m worried he’s experiencing anxiety over this routine or may get puppy depression as this routine will likely remain in place for at least his first year where he is left alone for long stretches of time.
I just don’t know what to do. I love him, and I want the best for him, and I just think he would be so much better off with a house, and a family with kids and a big yard for him to explore.
EDIT: also, one thing that keeps bugging me is that at his age he’s not fully vaccinated and there is simply no way with apartment living that he won’t be exposed to another dogs urine or feces when let out. I do my best to keep him away from poop but I’m terrified he’ll get deathly ill.